Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Beyond Anti Zionism - Why I dont support Israel as Jew, beyond me not being a Zionist (Inspired by River Adams' Post)

Though not with Judaism, Israel or Jewishness, I too have points that I would die with/for; for which the explanation is beyond pure logic or reason. However, there arises the age old question. My grandfathers voice rings in my head, though he is still alive and well, and it asks me a question. "What good are you dead?". It was the question my grandfather asked me when i told him of the appeals of martyrdom that i saw on some now-moot philosophical point. Its a bit of that old Jewish wisdom,which says that it is better to live for a cause then to die for one. Does Judaism die with Israel, if so what happens to those who remain alive after (/ IF) Israel is destroyed. Do they ( as Walter Sobcheck asks) just stop being Jewish? Are they now stagnant beings. Did Judaism constantly evolve from point A to point Zed, only to be stopped by the destruction of Israel. Lets say we know we can never go back to the holy land, do we become stuck in a form of stagnant and passive Jewishness? I say no. We are Jews, Even I who does not believe in a Judaic religion or god, but instead in some pagan ideology; who does not celebrate or plan to celebrate any of the high holidays; who considers himself so much more so American then Russian and Jewish...... even I am a Jew. I will remain one as long as my Grandfathers sayings and my Grandmothers paranoia, and my mothers kvetching are with me. I am as much a Jew as Moses Mimontes, and in the eyes of God should be just as important. Just as likely to cause a change. What does it mean to be Jewish? For me it means to have access to agency to experience and participate in a system of culture. I cant be Black or Native American, no matter how many dream-catchers I have hanging over my bed. I can participate, despite being a pasty honky, in their cultures; I can replicate and admire facets of them, and i can share those ideas with friends.....but I am not black....and I am Jewish. In order for me to be those things in addition to being Jewish, I have to have a permanent foothold of agency inside the culture. Schindler is buried in a Jewish cemetery, because even though he was a gentile, his acts of bravery transgressed his identity and gave him a permanent agency in the Jewish Lexicon. JFK is often regarded similarly in the Black community. Jewishness is not something that is thrown over us, it is something we participate in. This is true of all cultures. I could change what it means to be a Jew, and i dont know if I would be wrong in doing so. Just becasue a culture changes does not mean they become another culture ( IE Jews>>>Christians). I am not interested in myself preserving certain Jewish customs, but i will not let anyone tell me I am not Jewish, no matter how many Pagan ideas i hold, or how much pork I eat. My decisions effect the tribe, but the decisions before me should not be forgotten.....thats how i see culture. You must think of what you can do as a modern day Jew, not necessarily in spite of the middle east conflict; put perhaps A-pro-PO of it. You are a Jew even if you hold no opinion on the conflict; and even if you choose to hold an opinion; there will be a person who is a Jew, who holds no opinion. The question is which of these two people would you rather be, the live one or the dead one. Or rather "what good are you dead?" The Rastafarians believe that since the temple was destroyed numerous times, that they now hold that Temple inside themselves. Many smoke weed for this reason; as a kind of a sacrifice of the internal Temple. Can Jewishness die? Cant we hold the synagogue in our hearts eternally? Would we stop being Jews if we do? If we have no other place to go Israel to return too; and we mimick our Jamaican brothers, do we become a new religion? I dont think so.....I think we will persevere in spite of the many religions that have separated from us, in spite of the internal and external struggles we face and  in spite of horrific white assimilation forced upon us. We can always turn inward to the spark of God inside us. That cant be taken away. So once again the question arises "What good are you dead?" There will be people left....JEWS left...after/if Israel falls. Would you rather counsel them and have something to live for, or die with a line in the sand beyond which you can not fathom Jewishness going? Both answers are acceptable.....but which will you choose....which should you choose, being a Jew?

Monday, September 15, 2014

Disapoinnted in You

And yet again
You disappear
You wench of breasts and mind
No matter where on earth you are
I hope you find it Kind
My phone is cracked
Just like my heart
But all the time ado
I would like very much
If I could hear from you

The Crown's Clown's Obesrvations

Will you ever understand?
Class is not about money!
It’s about how you treat others
Who you say “can’t be as good as me”
It’s about how you react
To a joke that’s kind of crass
Whether you are pliable
Or a hard brass metal Ass.
When you wife’s shiny teal bike
Get stolen in the night
Will you say you’ll kick their ass?
And pound your chest and whine in freight
They can take you from your home
But you choose to hold on too tight
And even though, you claim to like the darkness
I know you’ve seen the light
You’re new money all the way
40k each and you still scream
But the other peoples whispers
Say you play for the wrong team
So go on and get ahead
Play that rat race, they all play
Get some money in your pocket
And make sure the roads get paved
Climb to the top
Make sure it worth your life
And then come to realize
There is no real top in a hive.
I hear you buzzing in my ear
Asking when I’ll feed my queen
But the flowers in the valley
Are much more serene
Mr. Lecture
Mr. Frown
Mr. My roommate is a clown
Turn around and head the other way…Down…
To find the treasure that’s been eluding you
See the rich are not concerned
With wanting anything
Apathetic to the last
They convinced you things
Can fulfill your dream
But those very things you own
End up owning you
Especially when you own
A conceited Bougey point of view.
Though your coffers may be full
All that you will ever be
Is a kid lost in a maze
Claiming “this not where I
Was meant to be”
I am sorry you grew up poor
But unless that’s how you want to stay to be.
Change your view of the world
And how seriously you’re treating me
Jokes are koans in disguise
I spit Magicks for your eyes
But you don’t want to recognize
So you believe I am tricking you.
How the masses will react
Will they cheat, rape, kill, burn, and steal
Are the topics for poor rich
Too gluttonous from their first meal
And the new rich are still poor
And they will always be
Because they do not love the world
Which they are forced to see
There are povs richer then you
At least they have community
But you only keep around
The reflections that you want to see
So the Crown can be in rags
And clown can be in stitches
Laughing at your ass
For ignoring what he preaches
It is true I am the fool
Who wrote all the presidential speeches
Thanks Obama, but
It you and her mama
Who are causing all the drama
Stare darkly at hole 13
The abyss is there is sub-par
You’ll be ok if you bring you clubs
If you still know where we are
Aiming for a hole in one
Is not totally unrespectable
Unless the asshole that you are,
Is too yourself undetectable.
You say that I’m a troll
But that means you’re scared of a doll
Does the rainbow in my hair
So legitimately frighten you
And you want all to partake
In your impotent rage
But we all flipped the page
Left the stage
Realized that anger
Will only keep us in a cage
It seems we shake you up
Good Asshole- Leave the ground
Otherwise you’ll never age a cheese
That tastes profound.
You say I have an Ego too
You can point out what you see
But the lack of self I see in you
Is the self I see in me.
Confidence is not the same
As vanity and pride
I am not saying you are awful
But you have shit to hide.
I describe two different rooms
Say that they are not the same
But you think I am attacking you
Because your ego is too vein
No matter how I invite you in
You want to stay in your room
Claiming that only in there
Can you maintain your mental boon
And I say travel around
Get many a point of view
But you only want to focus
On the walls that you pursue
So you ask why we departed
Focus strongly on a crime
But we didn’t choose to leave you
We just slowly changed our mind
There’s a gap to be transgressed
This I don’t deny
But you view it as abandonment
Shake your head and cry.
But the gap is not in time
And it will never be
It’s the gap
In which you open up your mind
And start seeing how we see.
I guess your room is cool too
But that’s just not who we are
Cause when were in that room
We did not get very far.
So don’t think, that I can’t hear
As your soul seems to scream
But my empathy lies only
With playing for my own team.
If you want a jersey boy….
Your number will be the same
But the team that we now play for
Plays a different sort of game.
I have been to where you’re headed
I am not ahead
You’re not behind.
It’s just that I found a better way
To lose your fucking mind
You can only climb so high, but
There is only so much at the top.
And you might as well let go
You’re still headed for the drop.
Maybe the reason you’re so low
Is because you got too high
And now you sit in your tower
Watching your life pass you by.
We are higher, down below
Then you will ever be
You’re stuck in your Ebony tower
Because you refuse to leave. 
Past the gate and past the guard
Past your wife and past your job
Past the bikes that are both stolen
And the assholes that keeps robbing you
Lies a world you have not seen
Except maybe in a dream
But you have to let God in
To let him become a part of you.
Its not ignorance to smile
When you should wear a frown
Its just means that you’re productive
When life tries to knock you down
Churchgoers are third eye open
But you think they’re 2 eyes blind
Because they smile, even in tragedy,
While you slowly lose your mind.
I am not saying you’re a savage
I am not saying you’re a fiend
If I caught the man who stole my bikes
They’d arrest me from the scene
I am not saying
Nor am I spraying
That I don’t like who you are
I am merely simply stating
That will only get you so far.
I am not saying things don’t happen
I am not critiquing how you react
I am just saying “it’s a thing”
But you treat things like they’re facts
You have many preconceptions
Don’t let them be the death of you
Don’t stare too long into the sun
It might burn your other points of view.
So in closing and summation
I don’t criticize your life or wife
But the milk is past expiration
And it’s causing tons of strife.
 Don’t let them steal your heart
Just because they stole your Tandem
It’s an intricacy of life
Don’t get angry, it’s all random
Chaos has the bestest answer
Letting go of who you are
Heisenberg said the less we know
Can help us determine just how far
How far an item will travel
How far will you get in your life?
If you let every little issue
Cause you such a huge strife
I am not saying don’t get angry
I am not above getting mad
But just because you lost you bicycle
Doesn’t mean you lose your head
See the picture as I see it
Is they built a filter of society
To keep you from achieving
Interaction with humanity
They keep you in a maze
Confusing you with energy
Till you don’t know how you are
Or where everyone was meant to be
Human aren’t meant to interact
In a web we did not weave
It a very have burden
For us to just receive.
Preconception and positions
Are woven in too tight
And we have to choose a fortune
Or we will be faced with freight.
But the problem with this structure
That is modern day society
Is that though it will soon rupture
Your exactly were you meant to be.
You filled out a survey
Choose your answers
Got in line
Laughing meanwhile at the pracers
Who slowly bind they’re time.
But when the ship goes down
You’ll be buckled to where you’re meant to be
But I will be outside
Cause out here its always truly free.
That’s the really dirty secret
The rich exploit and understand
That no other man, men, woman
Can give you a true command
Do what thou wilt
Shall be the whole of the law
Don’t let others peoples visions
Tell you what you saw.
Don’t scream facts like new money
Acting like you know the way
The real rich think it’s kind of funny
It’s a twisted game they play.
But if you slowly whisper
That you are not really sure
Then you can be welfare
But you will never be poor.
That’s the ironic part
About our society
Is that the chairs that we are bent too.
Are purely imaginary.
And the Rich will always scream
And the Richer will always whisper
But if you drop out of their game
You will find the Fall to be crisper
Butterflies too leave the tree
But they’re beauty is profound
Because they don’t need the Elm
To not fall and hit the ground.
You can both float like a butterfly
And sting like a bee.
But some fights are not worth fighting
I just wish that you could see.
So this poem is about much more
Then that someone stole your bike
But to you, my entire messages will only be
The words of pretentious lazy kike.
And until you highness is willing
To give my feelings agency
I will always be the clown
That is fooling with the Regency.
And the Crown will be in rags
And the clown will be in stitches
Laughing at your ass
For ignoring what he preaches.

Sunday, September 14, 2014


My Problem With Psychology

Psychology is a field that tries its hardest to teach us the intricacies of the individual and social human brain and how it works. In order to do this psychology has several avatars, several totem polls around which the witch-craft of its practice unfolds. Many of these totems are ancient trees with there trunks well-connecting to a period way before Freud ever came upon a man with a pen in his mouth. Many of these are more recent and sociological, some are behavioral. Some are so engrained in the mesh between society and person that you cant split them apart. Lecan, Jung, Freud, Skinner, Milgrim all join together to create a forest. And in this forest of many trees, an eerie event unfolds. Many times one sees the same animals in its wood but from different angels. To this effect you can practice the observation of the forest with a deck of Tarot cards, or a coin flip. It does not matter how you get to the forest....once you are aware that you can summon it into existence whether by yourself or with another, you can examine it. Many have realized this and built whole pharmaceutical industries on the vampiric observations they made and the ideologies they spit back at those about whom they made there generally assumptive assertions. This is what  I call the "reflection industry" which spits YOU back at YOU. Its in self help books, job titles (which make you think your position is an honorific),  Facebook personalty questions, and even in reality TV shows. What better way is there to assert who you are, they to bombard you with the other, that which you are not. You are not the women with 1000 kids on a TV show, or honey Boo Boo's mom. You are better then them.....hey thats you in a nutshell. You like blue....long walks on the beach, and even though you had a baby at 17, you are not a typical Teen Mom. Russian immigrants thank god they arent blacks ("they just climbed down from trees you know"...."we got jobs"), and blacks thank god they are not honkies. We are swallowing a culture in which who we are is a mix defined  between what we label ourselves as, and what we are not. This culture is emergent becasue we live in a schizophrenic world and are thus mentally unstable for it. Psychology, and science pertaining to medicine in general, acts like a solution, an aloe for the burn that is our complex social structure. THIS IS A LIE. Psychology is evil, not in any Scientology way or becasue aliens form EXRON 5 are behind it in an attempt to control humanity. Psychology is evil because it exists as a tool for us to replicate culture. Replicate society exactly as it is . So that the people with agency or authority keep it, and those without it have to stumble through the refuse of those who have it, for an attempt to gain it. Psychology like many other things, such as media etc reinforces class, racial and other labelesque boundaries. It pretends not too, and all of its experiments point to a falsely constructed, capitalistic end point. A progressive pinnacle, as if human health and spiritual well being is improved by the technological and sociological progress of man. Mans emotional happiness in not based on fancy space toys, and ginormous entities like the UN. Men pray for rain and healthy children and crops. Culture is often the enemy lieing about what we truly pray for, putting the thoughts of the many.....and presenting it to the individual as the thoughts of the one. This can be good and bad, depending on how the individual sees himself in the universe and whether he has a self thats goal oriented, or if he is stimulus oriented and controlled by the wills and desires and energies around him, constantly at their whim. (Fig 1). Psychology masquerades as help, but unknowingly is to does harm.

We have all of these experiments,  which point to the awful things man is capable of doing to each other and to himself, and what drives mans actions for good or for bad. They apparently tell us "hey we are all in this together". "Don't shock the man at the other end of the wire", "dont acts like a dick just because you are a prison guard", "dont assume others will help the little old lady being mugged". We are all one happy family. We can all be good normal humans.....KOOOMBIA MY LORD. BUT WHAT IS NORMAL? Certainly those with downs syndrome are not normal. Dyslexia is not normal. OCD, ADD, Bulimia all not normal. Those are abnormal. Or at best subnormal. FUCK THAT

THERE IS NO NORMAL. You are just as human as the homeless lunatic, or the aspie in your class. That drummer who fails to catch social cues is normal, he just has a condition others dont....a set of behaviors. Denoting a set of behaviors for the actual person, is called otherhood. It means you are labeling them and othering them. It takes away their agency and their free will; especially if they self inflict a name onto themselves in which they do not believe. This is what you do when you try to help normalize people. You are just comparing them to the herd, a fake algorithm, an entity which doesn't exist. It is an ideal, a pinnacle in a capitalist self replicating construct towards which all must strive. FUCK THAT

You might as well electrocute people who get answers wrong. We have made virtually no progress, we just now use the balm presented to cure social discomfort as a cream to cause social irritation. Hey it will sting....but thats just the toxins of who you are, leaving our social confirm.

Fuck That

If you think you are so free from this, watch the next commercial for someone with diarrhea or aids or ED. Hey how can you have a sunny bathtub day, without the rock hard dick and the cholesterol  free blood vessels? You either have to be "healthy" or take this or do this....and give us money


If we looked at healthy people and sick people in the same light, sick people wouldn't need all this shit we sell them. But we dont, sick people need to buy things to be more like us. Psychology is evil....because it is and matter how matter how cruel.

Fuck That 

Retarded people have sunny days too, you pretentious turds, Probably when others just accept their "abnormalities" for traits and not features that define who they are.  


You are not your paycheck
You are not you obsessive compulsive disorder
and if you think you are healthy, then you fallen into the trap; which states that there is a set way to be healthy.

Don't sell me sunshine in a pill, if you assume i have never seen the sun before
Fuck YOU

The nature of psychology implicitly creates categorizations, it implicitly divides.....becasue it is implicitly evil in it current Dr/Client form.

Fuck the cognitive dissonance, which Shrinks push down your throat. The lexicon of orthodoxy. The doxy of materialism incarnated in hope and dream.  

And for those of you, who are in the industry and think, this doesn't apply to you,
Whether your observing Milgrim, or participating in, it does not matter.
If you support a system with out at least acknowledging that you support it, then you are factious.

And even if you are date entry clerk at an out patient facility, by participating in the system, you are helping replicate it.

I am not asking you to stop, but i am asking you to acknowledge.....its the first step

 I KNOW WHAT I DID WHEN I WORKED FOR you know what you are doing?

Need I mention Nazis and just following orders or following an ideology blindly.

Don't let anyone put a schism between who you are and anything. These schisms are what cause schizophrenia.....same Latin root.
You are one with the world and all in it....its not a contest....least of all with yourself

"Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law"

dont let anyone tell you or anyone you care for otherwise.

least of all these quacks we call Psychologists